Ella Langley is opening up about her new song, “Loving Life Again.” The song is from her forthcoming new Dandelion album, out on April 10. Langley recalls writing “Loving Life Again” last fall, after she took some time away from touring, to focus on her own mental health.
“‘Loving Life Again’ is one of those songs that I wrote almost because I needed to,” Langley says in a video shared on social media. “Obviously, last year, I just kind of lost my mind a little bit. My imposter syndrome kicked in, and my life was moving faster than ever. All my dreams were coming true, but I felt sad for some reason. Just that in itself was frustrating. So I kind of lost myself a little bit last year, and that was tough, because all of these amazing things were happening in my life.”
Not only did Langley have hit singles and big tours, like opening for Morgan Wallen, but she also won multiple awards, including winning five ACM Awards.
“You would think you’d be the happiest person in the world,” Langley reflects. “I never canceled anything, maybe one or two shows the whole time. I ended up canceling two weeks’ worth. So I did that, I came back [home]. I closed on my first house in Alabama, right around the same time, and I really just got to be back home with my family. I got to grow my relationship with my faith. When I looked in the mirror, I looked like myself again by the end of those two weeks. I was hanging out with Ernest. He asked, ‘Well, how you doing?’ And I kind of just looked at him and was like, ‘It’s like I’m back to loving life again.'”
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What Ella Langley Says About Her Mental Health
Langley has bravely been open about her mental health struggles, including her ongoing battle with imposter syndrome, believing she isn’t worthy of all the success she is receiving. During a recent show in Chattanooga, the 26-year-old opened up about the struggles she faced with her mental health, especially last year
“Everything got so big, and I got everything I ever wanted. Everything I had ever wanted, I dreamed about since I was a little kid, and it was all coming true,” Langley recalls (via Country Now). She also shares how isolating it felt to have so much success, but be too busy to celebrate with those closest to her.
“I was by myself,” Langley recalls. “I didn’t get to celebrate it with my family. They were gone. I was gone. I got to celebrate it with people that I love, but it looked different than it always looked. It looked different than I thought it would look like. I got to a point last year where I looked at myself in the mirror, and I didn’t recognize the person that I saw. The people around me didn’t recognize the person that they saw. And I decided that this thing wasn’t more important than me, this thing that I’m doing.”
Fortunately for Langley, she was able to step away, and spend time with those closest to her, in her hometown.
“I luckily had closed on a house that I had just bought right next to my parents,” Langley remembers. “And I got to spend two weeks sitting there next to my mom and my daddy. I got to read my Bible and be next to my family in a way that I hadn’t gotten to do since I was 18 years old. And I’ll tell you, I got so far away from myself that it genuinely took me going back to number one, the place where I started to be, find the person that I thought I was and who I wanted to be.”